Thursday, February 06, 2014

Coffee Date

Coffee is one of my favorite times of the day; whether it’s the first glorious, necessary cup of the morning that lets me take a few minutes to close my eyes and focus my thoughts or a cup being enjoyed across the table from a friend, lettings us catch up and talk about life. Coffee plays a pretty serious roll in my life, so let’s pretend we’re catching up over a mug of beloved java.

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I would you tell that I’m feeling the winter blues and have basically hit my winter wall. The mornings are a struggle, its cold, I’m tired of scraping my windows, and doing the granny shuffle across the work parking lot. Last week, there was rain, which melted the snow and turned everything dreary shades of gray and brown. Then it snowed and iced and snowed again. I’m ready for warmer days, reading outside, and deck drinking.

I’ve been reading a lot, currently I’m reading Tell the Wolves I’m Home and absolutely love it. The writing is beautiful, the characters believable, and I’m carrying my Nook around with me to use any moments I can as reading time. I have a few other books lined up and am looking forward to dive into those.

In the past few weeks, I’ve had a few different people offer up some pretty strong compliments on me. While the compliments are incredibly flattering, they also leave me feeling like I’m not that person. One told me how together and how “on the ball” I am. The truth is, I’m generally being held together by a thread and feel like I’m under the ball more than on the ball. It leaves me feeling like I’m putting forward this false face or sense of who I truly am. I’ve been conflicted about it for a while now.

Podcasts have been making my life lately: This American Life, Joy the Baker and The Art of Simple are among my favorites.

I have some posts in my drafts that I’ve been afraid to publish. I’m not sure why or when I became afraid of my words or even yet, how people will react. I worry its not a good time to share them. So I don’t. I need to work harder at finding my voice and not being afraid of that voice.

I am in dire need of doing some cleaning out. I have a lot of clutter in my life and I’m sort of over it. What I need to do is take some serious time, start throwing things away and evaluating the place of “things” in my life. What once fit my life, don’t necessarily fit now. I have a completely unplanned weekend and need to start the cleaning out process. You can bet that I’ll be dragging my heels the whole time, complete with “but I don’t wanna.”

Your turn! What would you tell me if we were catching up across the table from one another? What are you reading? What are your favorite podcasts?