Monday, November 21, 2011

Sometimes I ......

It’s been a while and what better way to get back into the blogging groove with a Sometimes I…. post, right?

Sometimes I just need to spend the day in my pajamas, watching Netflix and completely zoning out to everything going on around me. I’ve been overwhelmed lately dealing with things in my personal life, sending out resumes, and still learning various aspects of a new job. Yesterday, I called a mental time out and did nothing but lay on my couch watching Brothers & Sisters. It was wonderful.

Sometimes I get really excited to go home. I fly home to Ohio (well, really, flying into Pittsburgh and driving to Ohio) to spend the Thanksgiving holiday with my family. This is a much needed trip home to see my loved ones and just recharge my batteries. Moving 700 miles away from home, totaling my car, and my stepdad having a massive stroke has been hard. Really hard. I cannot wait to give my mom a hug and force my dog to cuddle with me. And of course, eat lots of delicious home cooked food for Thanksgiving with my aunts, uncles, cousins, and grandparents.

Sometimes I feel guilty for being 700 miles away from home. With my stepdad’s stroke, the lives of my mom and even to a degree my brother and other family members have been changed drastically. Being so far away means that while I worry and feel alienated at times, my life has gone on in a very normal fashion. I’m not sure if its good or bad to be so far from everything that’s going on.

Sometimes I drive through my small Georgia town and think, if the first month or so had been different, it might be the sort of town I could actually grow to like. With Christmas decorations up, the downtown area (or square as they call it here) is almost reminiscent of Stars Hollow, very quaint and quirky. As it is, I’m over Georgia – the people, the views, etc. And once I’m over something there is no going back to the other side.

Sometimes I really miss the four distinct seasons of the Midwest. I left Ohio at the beginning of fall, leaves were just starting to turn and that fall chill was just beginning to seep into the mornings. When I moved here, the temperatures were still in the high 80’s and 90’s so it was a shock to my system, which has never experienced 80 degree weather in November. Last week, there were Christmas decorations going up on the campus where I work. Considering that I was riding around with my windows down and wearing capris, this just seemed wrong.

Sometimes I really intend to update my blog more than once a week. I start the weekend thinking that I’ll be really ambitious and schedule posts. Then I get sidetracked by sending out resumes, Netflix, finding a new recipe to try, or taking a nap while it rains. Since my mini-hiatus I’ve really missed the blogging community and the past few days have had a strong desire to get back to it, full force.

Your turn! Fill in the blank. Sometimes I __________________________.