Sunday, January 02, 2011

Perhaps

I rang in the New Year surrounded by my family and the friends that I consider my family.


When the final strains of Auld Lang Syne hung in the air intermingled with the sounds of horns, noise makers, and friends wishing each other a "Happy New Year," I was overcome with emotion. Perhaps it was first seeing my friend in her dress, holding her out at arms length while clasping her hands, telling her how stunningly beautiful she looked. Perhaps it was watching one of my best friends walk down the aisle with her father, hearing her father's voice crack, knowing they were both crying as he gave her away. Perhaps it was watching my friend place a yellow rose on an empty chair in memory and honor of her mother. Perhaps it was her little sister's speech, where she talked about how proud she was and how she always wanted to be just like her beloved big sister.


Perhaps it was knowing that so much is changing, not just my friend getting married, but my life and the lives of my friends & family. Perhaps its that this year will bring new lives, new places, new challenges, new adventures, new perspectives. Perhaps its both fear and excitement of all these changes.


Perhaps its in the fact that no matter what changes happen, no matter what I face, no matter what 2011 brings these people will be with me every single step of the way. Perhaps its knowing that the tears, the laughs, the heartache, the celebrations, the disappointments, the triumphs, the friendships are what makes my life completely spectacular. Perhaps its in appreciating and acknowledging all of these things.