Sunday, December 12, 2010

Fog

I spent the majority of last week in a bit of a fog. Early last week, due in large part to a virus, I passed out, cracking my temple extremely hard on a porcelain bathtub knocking myself unconscious which resulted in  a concussion.

I spent the majority of the week sleeping, fighting against debilitating headaches, and counting down the hours until I could take the next dose of pain meds.  Focusing on one task at a time was taxing, multi-tasking was out of the question. Looking at a computer screen exacerbated the headaches and watching television provided little comfort because it simply moved faster than my brain could keep up.

By the end of the week, the headaches had subsided somewhat but I was still feeling a bit disoriented. I felt as if I was physically there but I wasn't really present, a completely disconcerting feeling.  It was as if I was gazing though  a thick fog. People and details were hazy.  I was seeing, but not really. Showing up but not really participating.


In the past few days, things are becoming clearer again. The headaches are almost gone and being in front of the computer doesn't make me want to cry. Prior to last week, I never realized how serious a concussion could be. Its frustrating to not be able to perform simple tasks such as checking your email or driving a car. Its horrible to have a sharp, stabbing pain on the side of your head for several days. Its downright scary to not be fully aware of what's going on around you.

I'm still trying to play catch up and make up for lost time. (Being taken out for a week in December isn't optimal -- there are Christmas cards to write and address, Christmas presents to buy and wrap, and numerous other tasks that need to be accomplished.) I'll be taking some of the reverb10 posts that I missed and writing about them as I can. The plan for the next few weeks is to take it easy and cut myself some slack for the things that I don't get done. And of course, to enjoy the holiday season that seems to be fully underway (while dodging all the hard headed jokes from family and friends).

Have you ever had a concussion, how long did it take you to fully feel back to normal? What have you been up to the past week?