Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Shifting

Lately it feels as if there is a lot of shifting going on in my life. There's a shift in the weather as the cold hand of winter cleverly, slowly reaches out in the middle of night, leaving a chill in the air and layers of frost on car windshields. With the end of day light savings time there has been a shift in time. I'm always thrown off for the first week or so when I walk out of my office building into the dark evening. There are some shifts in some of my local friendships. Some of my friends are planning for big huge life events (wedding! baby!) and while I'm excited for those friends, their current main focus in life isn't mine. My priorities are shifting, I'm less inclined to participate in nights out at crowded bars with a large group of acquaintances, instead opting for an all day Harry Potter Marathon viewing with my cousin who is recuperating from her surgery. I'm needing to put my needs before others, and that's not something thats always easy for me.

Perhaps the biggest shift of all is my mentality. By nature, I'm someone who wants to help, who wants to fix the situation when its gone wrong. The past few weeks I've watched as some of my close family and friends have made decisions that I don't think are healthy or wise. I've needed to let that go, which is a lot harder to do than it should be sometimes. I've had to accept that I don't have all the right answers. I don't always know the right thing to say. I just can't be everything to everybody like I've been trying to do.

And that needs to be ok, to be enough.