Thursday, August 12, 2010

I'm the Kind of Woman

I'm the kind of woman who often waits until the last possible second to complete a project, I work better under stress and pressure; procrastination and I are old friends.

I'm the kind of woman who hides her sad feelings behind smiles and laughs, there are times its just easier and some emotions just can't be explained.

I'm the kind of woman who is incredibly protective of her "me" time, there are times to turn off the phone, ignore the internet and just be.

I'm the kind of woman who loves going to the theater to see a show, particularly musicals, and belts out the score at the top of her lungs before and afterward.

I'm the kind of woman who tries so hard to be a great friend, but often feel like I fall short -- letting too much time lapse in between emails, not calling for weeks, and letting even more time pass in between visits.

I'm the kind of woman who is searching, working, and striving for the next opportunity, desperately clinging to the notion that eventually the right one will come along and change life as I know it.

I'm the kind of woman who is ecstatic for my friends who are married and have children, but wishes they would realize that I'm okay on my own at this moment in time.

I'm the kind of woman who keeps fears hidden, worrying that if they are admitted out loud they could be seen as a sign of weakness.

I'm the kind of woman who thinks sunny Saturday afternoons are meant to be enjoyed sitting outside soaking up the sun while reading a book.

I'm the kind of woman who loves beauty products and makeup, but on a normal day only wears eye liner, mascara and lip gloss.

I'm the kind of woman who has a hard time letting people in, letting them see the real me, and not putting up walls when that would be the easier thing to do.

I'm the kind of woman who not only comes up with crazy off the wall ideas but works toward possibly making those ideas a reality.

I'm the kind of woman who thinks summer evenings are for sitting outside with a glass of wine, listening to the cicadas sing their evening song, relaxing while knowing these fleeting warm evenings are numbered as summer will soon slip into fall.

I'm the kind of woman who wishes she had better relationships with some family members but doesn't know how to go about accomplishing that without getting hurt.

I'm the kind of woman who has an easier time admitting all this in a written form rather than speaking it aloud.