Thursday, July 01, 2010

July

This morning as I flip the calendar to July, I have a hard time wrapping my head around the fact that the year is half over. Time is hurtling past me; while I’m making an effort to be present in each and every moment, I feel like a lot of the time I fall short in that endeavor. If I'm lucky I can grab on to some of those moments as they flash by me, hold on to them for a few minutes before releasing them on their way and repeating the cycle all over again.

I’ve thrown myself head over heels into summer enjoying deck drinking and concerts with friends, late night movies and Mexican dinners with my cousins, and quiet time in attempts to calm my soul. I move from one thing to the next leaving little time for letter writing, blogging, and sleeping. While I do love the way I’ve chosen to live out my summer, the reality of the situation is I haven’t always been completely present enough to fully enjoy them the way they deserve.

I’ve let myself get overwhelmed with situations I have no control over. I’ve let my spirit and heart become torn in various directions. I want to use this next month to more clearly define what I want for myself and more importantly, why I want those things. July is going to be the month of stitching myself back together, taking some very deep breaths, and listening more clearly to my own inner voice.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary. ~Steve Jobs

I want to use my time more effectively, so I can be fully present and happy in the fleeting moments that are so quickly shooting past me. I want July to be a defining month for me and the life I’m constantly creating.

How are you going to use your July?