Sometimes I just need to spend some time cleaning the "stuff" from my life-- both literally and figuratively. Over the past three days I've filled garbage bag upon garbage bag with things that for some reason I felt the need to hang on to. While I am far from a hoarder, I do have trouble of letting go sometimes.
Sometimes I need to spend face to face time with friends/mentors over glasses of wine contemplating what happens next both in my own life and theirs; trying to figure out how to use the mistakes of the past to learn and grow.
Sometimes I have mixed emotions over my best friends Christmas engagement. While I am happy for her because this is something she's wanted for a long time, I wonder if shes more in love with the idea of being married than she is with the reality of being married.
Sometimes I get a card in the mail with a simple messgae that hits incredibly close to home instantly reminding me of the work I need to do in the new year to get to where I want to be at the end of the upcoming year, even if I'm not quite sure where that is at the moment.
Sometimes I have incredible ideas of what I want to post but am afraid its not going to come out as eloquently as it seems to be in my head, which usually results in a post a lot like this one.
Sometimes I reflect over the past year/decade amazed at how far I've come, other times I'm saddened by how little things have changed, vowing to make 2010 a year that counts. I have this feeling that 2010 is going to be a big year for a lot of us.
Sometimes I have a conversation with a friend where I find myself confiding things I never expected too, then having that same conversation end with the realization that even though I've never met that friend face to face she really is one of my closest and dearest friends.
Sometimes I need to sort of step away from blogging for a few days to do some soul searching, think about the direction I want this blog to go, and what I want this little space on the internet to say about me. Shes long overdue for an overhaul, hopefully that will be taken care of in the next few weeks with a new layout and most likely a new name to match the domain.
Sometimes I realize how incredibly lucky I am to be part of an amazing blogging community full of people willing to offer kind words, late night talks, positive thoughts, and more than anything a place to let me be myself.
Your turn, fill in the blank. Sometimes I ________________________________.