Wednesday, October 21, 2009

To Have My Senses Put In Order

Lately I feel like I've had this inability to focus on much of anything. Normally my thoughts are a jumbled chaotic hodgepodge of various things but the past few weeks I've felt that my life and everything surrounding it is in a state of disarray. I'm not sure if its the cold, rainy, wintry like weather, the fact that I'm hoping for a new adventure to come my way, weekends that have been jam packed of fun and friends or a combination of the three. I've found myself running very short on patience, drive, and tolerance for others. I've just sort of felt like things were closing in around me.

I go to nature to be soothed and healed, and to have my senses put in order. ~John Burroughs

I've spent the past two afternoons at a local park, alone with my dog and my thoughts. I closed my eyes against the sun feeling the warmth penetrate my skin and pour into my soul. I kicked up dried leaves, laughing as my dog ran through attempting to snatch them out of the air before they could gently float back to the ground. I sat on a blanket of fallen pine needles just drinking in the sight of brilliant golds, reds, and oranges set off against an azure sky and verdant hillsides.

I felt the chilled air blow around me and at times, it seemed, straight through me. I gazed into the distant rolling hills astounded by their simple yet staggering beauty that I all too often overlook.

I spent several hours just being; getting lost in the beauty surrounding me and away from the daily issues of life. I focused only on the very moment I was in. I deeply inhaled the crisp fall air into my lungs, then exhaled away the stuffiness and negativity that had over the past few weeks settled into my being.

Every once in a while I need to abruptly halt everything that is going on in my life and take a couple of hours or a few days to quietly step away from the rest of the world.

Sometimes I need room to breathe.

I need open spaces to clear my head.

I need my soul soothed and spirit healed.

I need to have my senses put in order.

All photos by me.


Ashley said...

What lovely pictures. I've been trying a mind over weather technique, because California just isn't cooperating. It has not been successful. I hope you find some peace.

Amber said...

That park is gorgeous! I love the beautiful fall colours.

You know, I think I've been feeling like this lately, too. As much as I say I don't want to *unplug* because I love my internet life, I think that doing all my work-work, freelance-work and school-work on top of my hobbies (blogging, social networking etc.) on the internet is starting to take it's toll on me. I need to spend more evenings just relaxing and breathing!

I also need to clean my apartment. A messy apartment makes me feel so anxious!

Shelby said...

truly lovely photos. I found some peace and quiet this morning just by adoring the nature you were in. and your dog is absolutely gorgeous.


Anonymous said...

that is just what the doctor ordered, those are gorgeous pictures!!

Kyla Roma said...

Oh my goodness, I love your hills!! We have no hills here at all lol I would love to sit on that hill with you and your puppy- that just seems up and down dreamy!

Stacy said...

I totally need some solar therapy and alone time to regroup right now...thanks for sharing your awesome pics!

Anonymous said...

Beautiful post. I can see the words pouring out of your fingertips as you type and you managed to relax me while I read it which was quite a trick considering I'm at work right now =)

Lovely scenery near you indeed!

Leanne said...

Oh beautiful pictures, Mandy!

I wish we had those lovely coloured leaves here... but alas, it got too cold too soon.

Your description sounds heavenly.

Little Fish said...

Wow! What gorgeous pictures. There is definitely something about surrounding yourself with natural beauty and breathing fresh air that renews the soul.

Nilsa @ SoMi Speaks said...

I love that you are able to take a dive into nature to reset your senses.

rachaelgking said...

I am super impressed with your photography, FYI!

And I know exactly what you mean. I've been so overwhelmed lately. I'm trying to simplify and get back in control, but it's hard.

Bayjb said...

Love the photos and of course another awesome post too. I've been having a lot of trouble focusing too on things lately and I'm blaming the weather. I should probably look for a better blog/life balance.

Pam said...

Great photos and post. I need alone time to sort out my thoughts too. I also love to go outside to do it - being in nature helps clear my head.

Lisa from Lisa's Yarns said...

Gorgeous photos. Gorgeous post.

I am the same way and that is what running does for me. I went on a long run this morning along a little creeks & then around a lake and it was just a beautiful day. We finally had a nice, beautiful fall day so I took full advantage of it.

I feel like i need mornings like today more than ever right now as well as I feel like I am being pulled in 100 different directions. I know I am in a state of transition w/ getting used to the new job, etc, so eventually I'll feel more like 'myself'. But these quiet runs alone sure help a ton.

Maris said...

My gosh these photos are beautiful! I can't wait until the leaves are really changed here. It's been so warm that they haven't changed dramatically.

Auburn Kat said...

Now I want to go sit outside and read after seeing those pictures!

Andy said...

That first pic seems to be taken out of a book with a story happening in the mountains!

And I've also been doing this on weekends... There's a small park in front of my building and there's a huge one a few blocks away... I love them both, and both allow me to just wander around, seeing old couples walking, little kids playing, etc.