Wednesday, September 02, 2009

The Changing of the Seasons

Living in the Midwest has always provided me the opportunity to experience all four seasons. Summer is without a doubt my most favorite, followed closely behind by autumn. Last week I wasn’t quite ready to let summer go, but as I sit outside in the cool, crisp air watching my breath hang in the air I can feel myself loosening my grip on summer. I truly think that after this weekend I’ll be able to fully immerse myself into this next season both literally and figuratively.

I can feel fall as the air around me has been slowly changing, the days become a little shorter every day, and here or there leaves are starting to lose their green. The very essence of fall is slowly seeping into my soul, permeating my very being. In my grandfather’s day, autumn was a time for reaping and harvesting, preparing ahead for the long winter. I’ve decided to take the next few months to do my own internal reaping and harvesting; to take the experiences and lessons from this summer and find a way to make them last, make the changes necessary to sustain the almost child-like happiness I found this summer. Even with the discontent that I’ve felt this summer, there is no denying its been a magical one with the happiness far outweighing all else.

I had every intention of declaring an “Autumn of Me” but then I realized that what happened during the “Summer of Me” was bigger than any one season, that it cannot be confined to just a certain block of time, a few months out of the year. The “Summer of Me” was life changing, as silly or trivial as that may sound. I haven’t yet been able to find the words befitting the enormity of it all, but its slowly coming. As autumn settles in, I’m almost ready to settle in again too. These next few days I’ll be officially saying goodbye to summer and welcoming a new season with eager anticipation, acknowledging that as the season changes I am as well.


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18 comments:

nory said...

I think I'm changing my life attitude so that's I put more emphasis on my life and what I need to do to make it my life. So my summer song searching is bleeding into the rest of my life and will continue to evolve as I evolve.

My favorite things to do in the autumn are nest: bake, cook, create, read, watch feel-good movies and of course, get excited for the holidays.

Amber (Girl with the red hair) said...

What a great perspective. You're right; we can't constrain personal growth and evolving to a certain time block because it's always happening!

I love autumn - the changing colours, the cool, crisp air, autumn fashions. What I am not looking forward to is the cold, snowy winter months that will shortly follow it.

SoMi's Nilsa said...

Know what else is amazing? You've had an effect on a lot of people in the blogosphere, myself included. So, you're right. Not only can the "summer of me" not be confined to any one time block, but it also can't just be confined to you! Thanks for sharing it with us!

Cameo said...

Mandy, your writing is so perfect. It's always like you are using a wide paintbrush to draw the landscape that we can see through your words. It's beautiful.

As far as the "summer of me", when I was 24, I declared it the "year of me". I was really struggling with a lot of issues, my bday is the end of Oct so I told myself that starting in Jan, it was going to be the "year of me." Turning 24 was much harder than any of my other bdays. Trina was 23 when she had cancer the first time so in a way I felt really guilty that it didn't happen to me when I was 23. Turning 24 made me realize that the cancer truck had missed me, weird as that sounds. Survivors guilt (now it's REALLY hitting!). I can't say that I really did a year of me or took it very seriously but I did take a lot of time to write and paint.So don't confine the "season of you" to just a season. Take a year.... or two. And by all means, keep up on your blog!

The Alleged Ringleader said...

I love this post and that picture is gorgeous! I can't believe fall is here already! I'm going to miss the summer :(

Auburn Kat said...

My favorite things to do in the fall...eat donuts from the cider mill in my hometown, read, go to football games, talk about how I want to make chili but never do=)

Little Fish said...

I love this post. I think every day should have an element of a "day of Mandy" element to it!

I have mixed feelings about Autumn; on the one hand it's a reminder that I winter is coming (yuck!) on the other hand Fall in New York is literally magical!

mysaucerfulofsecrets said...

Spring is my favorite season and fall is a close second. I always think that summer's to hot and winter's to cold. I love the changing seasons. Enjoy the transition! :)

amanda said...

my dearest mandy,

you seriously write so beautifully. so vividly. your words always have me entranced. i get lost in them. and i love it!

letting go of summer is okay, because you know it will come back. it's never gone for good. that is the best part of living where the seasons change into one another.

also, that picture is glorious. makes me want to run barefoot through it.

AshleyD said...

It sounds like you are in the midst of one of those amazing life changing moments (even if it's occurring throughout several months). I love those and how they can change our perspective on life. You seem so happy, and that makes me happy. :)

jnyfritz said...

i am just so happy that you are content. and really could you write more eloquently?! because this post brought a tear to my eye! bring on fall!

Frank said...

This was brilliant. Autumn is an amazing time...for both nature and ourselves. Enjoy it!

Maris said...

Sounds like a great attitude. I too, love Fall!

Megs said...

Beautiful.

I love summer and I'm sad to see it go.

Autumn will be great though.

I detest winter :(

Bayjb said...

I won't lie, I'm trying to hold on to summer for a little longer, but I know when autumn does come around, I'll be ready for the change. Lovely post as always :)

mieletcannelle said...

The fall is always such a life changer for me -it seems i'm always moving in the fall, starting projects in the fall, making resolutions... it's a time for pickle making and canning and jamming and starting anew. I do love it so! xo

Vanessa said...

Autumn is my favorite season. I love the cool, crisp air. My favorite tradition is the first day of really really cool crisp air, make a huge pot of soup or stew and bake bread from scratch.

Andy said...

That's unfair. Fall is just starting in the midwest and it's in full-on mode here. I didn't get to see the transition. It's already cold, everyone's wearing sweaters, the leaves are falling, etc.

Which means the snow is coming sooner. Oh great.